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I feel like shit. My head is pounding. My nose is runny. I have puffy red eyes. My body is filled with a dull ache and I'm drained of energy.

I'm bad with breakups. When I think about her, I start to break down and cry uncontrollably. I'm not as emotionally strong as I thought or hoped to be.

She made me genuinely happy. She had an energy that I loved. She made me laugh and smile with her wit.

I guess she didn't see things the same as I did, or at least didn't feel the same way. It hurts. I thought we had a stronger connection.

I'm reminded why people put up emotional walls. When you fall in love and it doesn't work out, you hit the ground hard.

I know things will be okay later. Eventually I'll accept that we weren't meant to be and move on. Right now it's difficult to imagine not seeing her tomorrow.

Before this, I was setting goals of what I wanted to do in the upcoming month. Now I'm just trying to function and get by the hour without sobbing.

This hurts like hell. I didn't think it would be this bad. I don't even know why. It feels wrong. I'm supposed to be a grown man, but all I can do is curl up and hope I wake up from a bad dream.